Dreams
Posted: Sat Nov 07, 2015 8:41 pm
Funny things aren't they. I dream every night and they do say it is necessary to dream.
I was chatting to my Dad about it and a few other guys. A common dream older people seem to have is about toilets, looking for them, not finding them, finding them unusable etc. Clearly bladder signals impinging on subconscious?
I used to write them down if I woke from one suddenly. This was one from the time before I discovered I had kidney cancer and was a recurring one well recurring in the sense that each time I dreamt it I went a little further..
"I dreamt I entered an old house with many doors in the hallway. Behind one dirty white panelled door there appeared to be a nameless horror lurking and for many occurrences of the dream I feared to open the door. But at last I plucked up the courage to do so or was compelled to do so and was faced with a spiral staircase that wound up to the right. As I mounted up the stairs, proceeding only so far with each dream occurrence, the sense of dread arose and even now as I write this that memory makes my skin crawl and the hairs stand up on the back of my neck.
The stairs were of ancient foot-hollowed stone as if many had passed that way before and the walls were white plastered. Many people do not like spiral stairs as you feel enclosed and claustrophobic and you can hear others approaching but cannot “see round the corner” to judge how far away they are. Every step held a dread and I was often hard pressed to raise my feet to place them on the next step. A smooth hand polished brass rail ran up the left hand wall to which I clung for security.
I finally reached the top and this event was just prior to my cancer operation. The fear and horror were very intense by this stage. Again I was faced with a panelled door and when I finally plucked up the courage to open the door I knew there would be some nameless horror within as its tangible force oozed through the door almost dragging me in.
But actually what this horror was in dream form I never found out but I can describe the room for when the door finally swung open there was only really a smoky blackness and the feeling of dread seemed to seep away from me. The room was in a turret such as found on mock Gothic Victorian houses and was rectangular in shape with windows at my chin height all round. The exterior was half-timbered with timber frames and mullions, the roof curved to a peak, the top was tiled (or leaded) in small lozenge shape tiles and the whole was topped with a sharp spike. This turret appeared to be far above the normal roof level of the house but the impression I got was that it “floated” in the air above an indefinable building and landscape far below.
In the centre of the room was a large oak table with giant bulbous carved legs. The carvings were of no earthly animal – real or mythical. It was not revealed what was on the tabletop. (perhaps this was the operating table). There was no other furniture in the room but the inner walls were panelled in dark wood on which there was prominent graining and the internal ceiling composed of fancy plasterwork made up of strange flora and fauna.
When last I visited this room in dreams some months after the operation it was dilapidated and broken. Cobwebs and moss hung from the window frames, the panelling was chipped and cracked. Rafters lay across the table and the fear and horror had gone. I observed this and felt this as I walked around the room and “flew” round the exterior."
I was chatting to my Dad about it and a few other guys. A common dream older people seem to have is about toilets, looking for them, not finding them, finding them unusable etc. Clearly bladder signals impinging on subconscious?
I used to write them down if I woke from one suddenly. This was one from the time before I discovered I had kidney cancer and was a recurring one well recurring in the sense that each time I dreamt it I went a little further..
"I dreamt I entered an old house with many doors in the hallway. Behind one dirty white panelled door there appeared to be a nameless horror lurking and for many occurrences of the dream I feared to open the door. But at last I plucked up the courage to do so or was compelled to do so and was faced with a spiral staircase that wound up to the right. As I mounted up the stairs, proceeding only so far with each dream occurrence, the sense of dread arose and even now as I write this that memory makes my skin crawl and the hairs stand up on the back of my neck.
The stairs were of ancient foot-hollowed stone as if many had passed that way before and the walls were white plastered. Many people do not like spiral stairs as you feel enclosed and claustrophobic and you can hear others approaching but cannot “see round the corner” to judge how far away they are. Every step held a dread and I was often hard pressed to raise my feet to place them on the next step. A smooth hand polished brass rail ran up the left hand wall to which I clung for security.
I finally reached the top and this event was just prior to my cancer operation. The fear and horror were very intense by this stage. Again I was faced with a panelled door and when I finally plucked up the courage to open the door I knew there would be some nameless horror within as its tangible force oozed through the door almost dragging me in.
But actually what this horror was in dream form I never found out but I can describe the room for when the door finally swung open there was only really a smoky blackness and the feeling of dread seemed to seep away from me. The room was in a turret such as found on mock Gothic Victorian houses and was rectangular in shape with windows at my chin height all round. The exterior was half-timbered with timber frames and mullions, the roof curved to a peak, the top was tiled (or leaded) in small lozenge shape tiles and the whole was topped with a sharp spike. This turret appeared to be far above the normal roof level of the house but the impression I got was that it “floated” in the air above an indefinable building and landscape far below.
In the centre of the room was a large oak table with giant bulbous carved legs. The carvings were of no earthly animal – real or mythical. It was not revealed what was on the tabletop. (perhaps this was the operating table). There was no other furniture in the room but the inner walls were panelled in dark wood on which there was prominent graining and the internal ceiling composed of fancy plasterwork made up of strange flora and fauna.
When last I visited this room in dreams some months after the operation it was dilapidated and broken. Cobwebs and moss hung from the window frames, the panelling was chipped and cracked. Rafters lay across the table and the fear and horror had gone. I observed this and felt this as I walked around the room and “flew” round the exterior."